Cheng Yun & Caspian

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‘You sure you’re not hungry?’

But weren’t we here just two weeks ago? When I first told you about my HIV? I catch myself. Even if I can’t feel it yet, this thing, it’s in my blood now. It’s a part of me now. It’s mine now.

‘No, I ate.’

It’ll be a scandal perfect for the new millennium: HIV-Positive-Orgy-Loving Civil Servant Ensnares Son of Local Developer. Jesus, that headline would make millions for the papers here, and in Malaysia.

The back of my throat churns. I don’t even touch the black coffee on my table. In another two weeks, I’ll be gone. And I don’t know when I’ll be back, or if I’ll ever be back.

‘Cheng Yun?’

‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry’ I bury my head in my hands again.